Chasen Dreams

 Hi! I was MIA last year.     I won't use the usual excuse this time.  I was not busy. In fact, I was and still am unemployed.  I did not lose my job though.  I resigned from work and   moved to Sydney last year.    The reason why  I did not write when I had  all the resources to write is   because I did not feel like writing.  The big move in the midst of the pandemic drained me emotionally and mentally.  That's the reason why I chose REBUILD as my one word for the year 2021. The pandemic is not yet over and no one knows when it will  be over.  However, we can't just sit, do nothing and wait for the "old normal" just like what I did in 2020.   The pandemic came like a thief in the night, leaving me with no chance of beating it.  Like all of us, I was caught off guard.  I did not know what to do.  So I paused and put all my plans on hold.  I simply survived while ...

I was a bit hesitant to host a birthday party for Baby C here in Manila because I was afraid that nobody would attend since our families are in Naga.  Actually, my initial plan for her birthday was to go out of town.  However, Baby C told me that she wanted a  birthday party.  She excitedly told me that she wanted cake, balloons and games.  The spark in her eyes made me say yes. After all, it was her birthday, and all I really wanted was to make her happy on her special day.   Indeed, it was one of the best decisions I’ve made. OA na naman ako. Haha.  But, yes, she was very very very happy.  When she saw the venue of her party, her eyes literally twinkled.  OA na kung OA but   I got teary eyed when I saw how happy she was.  She had so much fun that I want to  throw a birthday party on her 4 th birthday. haha The party was held at McDonalds Eton Centris.   Before booking McDo, I  scouted for other ...

Dan: Surprise! (handing me flowers) Me: Wow! Thank you Daddy! Sabi ko naman sayo huwag ka nang mag- abala. Sayang ng pera mo. Dan: Kilala kita. Ilang Valentines mo na yan sinabi. Tapos paghindi kita binigyan, magtatampo ka. Me: lol Dan: Huwag kang mag-alala, ibabawas ko yan sa remittance ko. Lol We stayed at home on Valentine’s Day. We didn’t go out because first, it was a weekday and our energy had been sucked  by our more than eight hour stay in the office. Second, I didn’t want to spend for a fancy dinner. And third, I felt that we already   celebrated Valentine’s   Day.   On February 11-12, we went out of town (Laguna) to attend the birthday party of our friend’s daughter.    Actually, the date of the party was   on the 12 th but we opted to go to Laguna in advance because we wanted to have a “family time” outside of our abode.   My husband and I resolved to stop holing up in our home and start going outdoors. It’s not f...

One time, I found a chocolate bar on my table. Me: Kanino to galing? Officemate: Hindi ko alam.  Nandiyan na yan pagdating ko. Baka galing sa mga nag Subic. Me:  Alam ko na kung kanino galing! Officemate: Pano mo nalaman? Me: Isa lang naman ang kaibigan ko kaya alam ko na kung kanino galing. Officemate: May advantage din pala pag isa lang kaibigan noh? Haha Of course, I was exaggerating.  Hindi lang naman isa ang kaibigan ko.  But, I only have few friends.   I am nice, but I am not that friendly.  Does it make sense? Haha.  I feel that I am too old to make new friends.  I mean, I no longer have the luxury of time to make friends.  Don’t get me wrong but  I believe that  one needs to have time and effort to nurture budding friendships.  And how can I commit my precious time to others  now that I am already a wife and a mother?  And you know what? I don’t easily tag a person as my friend.  ...

I’ve been very busy these past few weeks.  My mother and nieces had their vacation in Manila. Then, a day after they went back to  Naga, I was informed that my mom was admitted to the hospital.  Without a second thought, I boarded a bus going to Naga, leaving my work  to the members of  the committee I was heading up.  When  I arrived, I found out that my mom was transferred to the ICU while my father was also admitted.    Imagine the anxiety.  But God is indeed good.  Both of my parents are home now  although my mom has not completely recovered yet.   The hospital bills were settled.  My differential (I got promoted!) was timely credited to my account.   My superior and colleagues were very considerate.   My relatives and friends showered us with so much love and support. When I got back to the office, as expected,  I was bombarded with  work and responsibilities.  Th...

I almost had a heart attack two weeks ago.  I was in the bathroom when I heard my husband yelling “Mommy! Si Baby C…” In an instant, I ran out of the bathroom.  My trembling husband was carrying my crying baby.  Apparently, Baby C fell off the play pen.  I immediately checked if something was wrong with her, if she was bleeding, or if she had bukol.  When she stopped crying and seemed okay, I went back to the bathroom.   That was the only time I realized that I went out naked. Dan and Baby C’s yaya told me that their eyes were on Baby C that they didn’t bother to look at me.  However, they were not sure whether our neighbors saw my sexiness. Waaaah! I don’t care! Baby C is now very malikot.    We cannot take our eyes off her.  Bawal kumurap.  Taking care of a toddler is indeed tiring but at the same time fun, super fun to be exact.     I realized that I haven’t written much about my daughter here.  ...

My very long weekend starts at this very moment. As I’ve told you in my previous posts, I’m a civil servant and government work in NCR is suspended from November 17-20, 2015 for the APEC Leaders' Meeting.  I won’t discuss my opinion on this APEC something though.  What’s  in my plate right now is a six-day vacation!  I’m very excited.  No. We will not travel or hole up in  a posh hotel in the metro.  We don’t have funds for that yet.  I will just stay at home with my darling girl.  We will play, sing, laugh, dance and make yakap-yakapan. Moms especially working moms know how exciting days off are.    Here are my other plans: 1.        Finish my work backlog 2.        Buy and wrap Christmas gifts 3.        Clean our house 4.        Finish the remaining episodes of Scandal 5.     ...